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Thursday has arrived (already??)!
I promised to deliver some thoughtful words in this post and what I am about to share is something I have been introspecting about a lot lately. Watch out!
Being at peace.
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What is that really?
We can be at peace with our lives, our world, or different bits and pieces of the things that make up who we are, what we do, and what we have to deal with.
After much thought and introspection, I truly believe that being at peace is a process.
Do we ever really get to the point where we can say we are totally at peace? I don’t know.
Do we really want to get to total peace? I think so, but in some ways I am not completely sure.
I have spent the last three years trying to figure out how to help Maddox and his migraines.
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I have spent countless hours reading, writing, researching, talking, and cooking.
We have modified lifestyle, diet, and nutrition.
Still, the migraines keep coming.
Every time Maddox gets a migraine, I review the last week. I think about what we have done, what might be out of our routine, and every little morsel he has put in his mouth.
At the end of it, I turn up nothing concrete.
I am finally at the point where I truly feel at peace.
This is the hand we have been dealt. These awful episodes are just a part of our lives and I have accepted that.
I realize that my efforts have not been wasted. I have to believe that the things that I have done for Maddox will help him in the future to suffer less, and hopefully shorten the episodes or make them less frequent.
But I am at peace with the fact that they seem (for now) to be here to stay.
The last migraine he had, last Friday night was different though.
In the midst of it, as Brent was running down all the possibilities of what could’ve caused it. I stopped him. (that makes it sound so nice… tee hee. I wasn’t really that sweet about stopping him…)
I just let him know that I am at peace with this and I am done trying to make myself crazy figuring out why.
As the migraine continued and it wasn’t following its “normal” course, my peace dissipated…
I sit here today, searching for more answers, more resources, more options for ways to make it better…
I am not searching for the answers as to why, and I feel like I have accepted them, but I somehow cannot just let it go without continuing to try to make it better for my baby.
Peace is a process.
It seems like there are many steps along the way.
I wonder if we ever really arrive. I know at this point as much as I thought I was there, I have more work I need to do.
Do you think we are ever really at peace? Is that the goal?
I honestly believe it is possible (and healthy!) to simultaneously have acceptance and optimism. That little bunny boy is lucky to have you!
Thank you Miss Jodi!
I agree…it is definitely a process. Like you, I’m learning to accept what is and be present. Less questioning, more acting.
Absolutely. So hard to do right??
I am learning this about life too. I think the best thing is learning how to give up the fact that you’re trying to control it and just relinquish something you have no control over. It’s SO hard as a woman and a loving mother to think that way, but remember it does not mean you’re giving up in any way. It is just personally exhausting and tiring beyond belief to control the things we cannot. Remember the serenity prayer? So, once you can be free and give up trying to control it, you will have more energy and power in other ways. I am so sorry for little Maddox and you guys. Migraines are so confusing and I hate that it’s a part of your life. Good luck with the continued process of inner peace and letting go. You rock, girlfriend. You’re amazing.
Thank you friend. Love to you
Yesterday I was shopping in a little store that sells American products with a friend and we came across Baking Soda. She said she only cleans with it because of her Migraines. She said she can’t just use any cleaning product because it would bring on the Migraines. I remembered when I was pregnant with Tara, anything with a slight aromatic smell (perfumes, soap, coffee, lotions,etc.) would bring on immediate and excrutiating headaches making me want to throw up. Have you looking into that? I just can’t imagine what you go through when your baby is sick. I’m sure you already know this but I thought I would send it anyway! You’re amazing!! Keep doing what you are doing, learn to take breaks when Brent is home, find a hobby that is just for “You”, read a fun book, and you will find that peace and strength through all of the busyness of mommyhood
Take Care Debbie.
Thank you!! I have transitioned into only cleaning with a few non-toxic products: Dr. Bronners Castile Soap, Vinager, baking soda and hydrogen peroxide. I didn’t know about the possible connection with Migraines though! I hope you are all well